Alone

I can't help but to feel empty... I feel like I'm lost in this black hole.... I have someone that is suppose to love me yet I feel unloved and uncared for... I have someone that seems to love me but my heart is not there for them like they are for me... I have friends that seem to come and go... When I'm around those I care about I feel okay... but then when they are gone I feel lost... I only seem happy for short period of times... all the other times I'm just.... ALONE!?

I'm Back!!!

So its been a year or so that I've even shared whats on my mind... Much has changed.... Much I have lost... But the good thing about all that is that I'm still standing strong or at least as strong as I can... I no longer know what Love is exactly or who I am going to love... I mean yes I have those in my life that I love, but I do not have that One person that I can say I'm In Love With... and thats okay! My mind is always racing with ideas... some crazier than others, but at the end of the day I still want the same thing... the same outcome... To be Happy... Everyone says they want to be happy... but the happiness that I want is the one that no one can destroy no matter what situation I'm in... The happiness that lies within myself... I'm still not too sure how or even when its gonna happen... but I know that one day everything will come together... The puzzle of my Life...

Teen Mom

I remember when I use to wish to become a teen mother. I've always wanted to have my little boy sooner than later. But I know deep down it's not the right time. And I think God has blessed me with not getting pregnant at a young age. I've had many scares and many situations that normally would end up in a baby carriage. Why was I so stupid? Why did I want to have a baby so young? Maybe because I felt like it would fix all the problems I have inside. Would they fix the problems? Or just make them worse!!

Confusion and Fustraition

I've thought about a lot of things and about what I want. What I want most is to live my life the way that I wish. Sad thing about that is that its not that easy to do just that. When it comes to me and him i feel butterflies when I think about how our life will be. Yes sometimes it is scary, but beautiful at the same time